Today I soar higher
And I soar higher!
Escaping to the place
More welcoming and sacred
Than your heaven on earth
My heart is numb
And I can, neither feel love
Nor hate!
For my heart is weary
Of both.
Your smile could make me stay
But you chose to break me away
Today you can call me
A melted rainbow
A dead butterfly
Or a forgotten song
You are free to call me
Honey, sweet daughter, darling angel
Mom and dad
I am going to a place
Where I came from
My stay was short
I had dropped in to say , Hello
Neither your pleadings
Nor your regrets
Would bring me back
This piece of steel will set me free
And close the door of your hell
With a bang.
Don’t rush when you hear it.
I guess, I am the problem
You are just two shadows
Lingering your days together
The victims and the abusers
Why call it a family
You would do better
When I am gone
I am your extra rib
The cause of your pain
My departure will make
You wiser and a better couple
The demon needs my blood
To set us free
My take off will make you
Know and love me better.
Our Lives Today 
Your memorial words take me to a place of torment and pain. And you take me through her mind to a place of imagined peace and beauty! Your words have poignantly captured the depth of this sad story (from our perspective) and yet in the mind of the girl it is a place of beauty and release for all concerned.
Ruqia, your powerful words evoke so many shades of emotions. Thank you!
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Thanks.🙏
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Want to reblog if you allow
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Yes, you can reblog. It would be an honor for me .🙏
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Thank you 🙏
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I think you’ve captured the angst perfectly. Suicide is a demon which is never put to rest
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Suicide is such a sad reality.🙄🙏
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Truly heartbreaking, Ruqia.
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Yes, it’s. she was my relative. Always will be part of my memory.🙏
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Suicide isn’t easy to talk about, yet you worded it so well. I hope and I pray that her soul is finally at peace…
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Sure, never easy to talk about and we can never be sure what these people were thinking when they killed themselves. I just tried to be that person for a while. And I wrote about that girl. This girl was depressed.
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Hard to imagine what went through their mind for I’m sure it wasn’t an easy decision to carry out. My heart truly goes out to this girl and the family she left behind. So much pain.
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Very powerful and before I read your note below..very scary. Suicide is never the best choice.
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Yes, it’s a very scary state of mind. We think they make a choice and perhaps they think it’s the only option to end the suffering. I had a chance to talk to a suicidal person. Not this girl who I mentioned in the poem. 🙏😐
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